hollywood star

so many times this song is played
rewinding the situaition over and over again
repeating the same old series
wondering when is this season going to end

the novel is too heart ripping
sometimes i forget to follow the script
the director shouting "cut"
but the film is still recording

in front of the camera i try to laugh
but behind the scene being fraud is enough
i try to act like normal
but the story is just to dismal

why am i so stupid to make such an unreasonable decision
i thought by letting go it will end the session
that the agony will just disappear with the commotion
everybody, even my heart, told me to hold on
but i told myself i will move on
i threw away the platinum price i had won

but where the hell is the encore
everywhere's a silent moore

the moral of the play lost its point
apathy is left, need someone to anoint
now i regret what i did
what was the reason why i planted the seed
i didn't realy have a valid excuse to let go
when your the spotlight during the show

now it's againts all odds
if i get you back
appalingly strong was the impact
but day and night i will ask God
what's impossible when you believe
every ounce of my faith i will give

i'm sorry if i mauled you
please accept my act of contrition
my conscience is killing me
delinquent to the core, what to do

i was inimical, considered demented
insane that i came into that equation
lunatic because of my iniquity
it didn't turn out what i had intended

i know this poem is too hacknedeyed
but i just want to tell you a thousand times why
i wanted a pause, an interlude
because my role is just too crude